Tasliat qalbe saburam (part h)

bhesh bgid Bkhabaram bporCd eshqemun chy shod, chshme siash tarze ngash hojbo hayash male ki shod, uni k taze uma2 2ye dlam khatere shod, bhesh bgid ba raftanesh kare dlam 1 sare shod, par za2 raft hatta baram khatto nshunam nakeshid, rafto nshast ru shuneye un k b fkram nareCd, bhesh bgid hamin ruza 2ye dlam mikoshamesh, khoda nayare un rozo BOfte chshmam 2 chshesh, Dvune bud amma manam Dvune tar az eshqe un, qalbamo zad b namesho par za2 raft az ashiUn,
asheqy kare to nabud man asheqet budamo bas, un hame ehsa3 mano koshT golam paye havas, amma hanuz du3t daram b june un k dus darish, vaqT k Sme to biad znde misham nafas nafas . . .
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avvalesh nafahmidam k dlam ro Dvune karD, ya k 4 gusheye qalbo ba ngahet khune karD, umadam ngat konam man vali chshmam nagozashtan, dad zadan k chshmaye un K ngahe toro khastan? ta k Ddamet 2bare dle man Dvune tar shod, umadam biam knaret amma dl Vrune tar shod, dle man Dvuneye tost qadde eshqhaye 2 2nya, dle man mimire age y ruz to nabashy, chtory mi2ny eshqamo bBniO baz joda shy? goftam eshkali nadare eshqesho midam b farda, 2bare msle hamishe man misham y marde tanha, qalbamo khodam shkastam har shabam shkaste tar shod, ta k chshmat mano D2 az qame man ba khabar shod . . .
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azash khastam y omr ba man bmune, azash khastam qadre mano bdune, azash khastam male kaC nabashe, y shaB goft mikhad azam joda she, dg jaE namunde harchy bude suzunde, tamame khateratam 2ye daste to bude, dg jaE namunde dg hamishe tanham, baraye khateratam mirize ashke qamham . . .

Eshqe 2khtaro psare daneshju

vaqT sare kla3 dars nsheste budam havasam motevajjeye 2khtary bud k knare dastam budO un mano dadashy 3da mikard

b muhaye mavvaj va zibaye un khire shode budam va arezu mikardam k eshqesh motealleq b man bashe, amma un tavajjohy b in mas'ale nmikard

akhare klas Pshe man umad va jozveye jala3ye Psh ro khast, man jozvamo bhesh dadam, bhem goft: moteshakkeram.

mikham bhesh bhesh bgam, mikham k bdune man nmikham faqat dadashy basham, man asheqesham, amma... man khyli khyli khjalaT hastam... ellatesh ro nmidunam.
tlefon zang zad, khodesh bud, grye mikard, dustesh qalbesh ro shkaste bud, az man khast k bram Pshesh, nmikhast tanha bashe, man ham in karo kardam, vaqT knaresh ru kanape nshaste budam, tamame fkram motevajjeye un chshmhaye masumesh bud, arezu mikardam k eshqesh motealleq b man bashe. bad az Ddane 2 sa@ film va khordane 3 baste chips, khast bre k bkhabe, b man ngah kar2 goft: moteshakkeram.
ruze qabl az jashne daneshgah Pshe man umadO goft: qarar bham khore un nmikhad ba man biad.
man ba kaC qarar nadashtam, trme gozashte ma b ham qol dade buDm, k age zamany hichkodum baraye mara3mi partner nadashTm baham Dge bashim, 2rost msle y khaharO baradar. ma ham ba ham b jashn rafTm. jashn b payan rCd, man posht sare un knare dare khuruG Estade budam, tamame husho havasam b un labkhande ziba va un chshmane hamchon kristalesh bud, arezu mikardam k eshqesh motealeq b man bashe, amma un msle man fkr nmikar2 man inro midunestam, b man goft: moteshakkeram, shabe khyli khuB dashTm.
y ruz gozasht, 3pas 1 hafte, 1 sal... qabl az inke b2nam harfe dlam ro bzanam ruze fareqol tahCl fara rCd, man b un ngah mikardam k 2rost msle freshteha ruye sahne rafte bud ta madrakesho bgire, mikhastam k eshqesh motealleq b man bashe, amma un b man tavvajohy nmikard, va man ino midunestam. qabl az inke khune bre b samte man umad, ba hamun lbaso kolahe fareqol tahCli, ba grye mano dar aqush greftO saresh ro ruye shuneye man gozashtO arum goft, to bhtarin dadashie 2nya hasT, moteshakkeram.
mikham bhesh bgam, mikham k bdune man nmikham faqat dadashy basham, man asheqesham. amma ... man khyli khjalaT hastam... ellatesh ro nmidunam.
nshastam ru sandali, sandalie saqdush, un 2khtare hala dare ezdevaj mikone, man Ddam k bale ro goft va varede zndegie jaDD shod, ba marde DgeE ezdevaj kard. man mikhastam k eshqesh motealleq b man bashe, amma un in tor fkr nmikard va man ino midunesta, amma qabl az inke k bre ru b man kar2 goft, to umaD? moteshakkeram!
salhaye khyli ziaD gozasht, b tabuT ngah mikonam k 2khtary k man ro dadashie khodesh midunest, 2ye un khaBde, faqat dustane 2rane tahClesh 2re tabut hastan, y nafar dare khateratesh ro mikhune, 2khtari k dar 2rane tahCl un ro nveshte, in chizi hast k un nveshte bud: tamame tavajjoham b un bud, arezu mikardam k eshqesh baraye man bashe, amma un tavajjohy b in muzu nadasht va man ino midunestam, man mikhastam bhesh bgam, mikhastam bdune k nmikham faqat baraye man y dadashy bashe, man asheqesh hastam, amma... man khjalaTam... nmidunam... hamishe arezu dashtam k b man bge dusam dare . . .

A kash in karo karde budam . . !

Tasliat qalbe saburam (part g)

Khyli sakhte un kaC k goft va3 chshmat mimire, breO dg soraqy az tovo ngat nagire
khyli sakhte 2ye paEz ba qariB ashena shy, amma vaqT k bahar shod y juri azash joda shy
khyli sakhte k dli ro ba ngahet 2zDde bashy, vasate rah amma az eshq 1kami tarCde bashy
khyli sakhte bri 1 shab va3 chidane 3tare, valy ta rCD unja bBny ruz shode 2bare . . .
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man faqat asheqe inam omri az khoda bgiram, Nqadr znde bmunam k b jaye 2 bmiram
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chte grye mikony dle shkaste, baz 2bare ki paro baleto baste, y chshet ashk y chshet khun, dlakam A dle daqun, in hame sukhTO sakhT bas nabud, hame 2nyaro shnakhT bas nabud, in hame 2 in qomare ruzegar hame zndegito bakhT bas nabud?
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shabo tanhaEyo qorbat 2 chshaam ashke por az khun, y dle shkaste az yar y dle por qamo daqun, Ntezar az to nadaram mano tanha ja bzari, tako tanha 2ye 2nya to mano dusam nadari, har ki joda kard toro az man elahy qos3 bgire, 2ye tanhaEye qorbat B kaso B yar bmire, B to az hasrate durit dle man dare mimire, ta to bar garD 2bare dle man arum bgire, kash ki bfahmi ki du3t dasht, gole mhro ki barat kasht, ki 2 qamhavo 2 qossat mun2 un ashkato bardasht, amma un hanuz 2 yadesh toro tanha nmizare, montazer b rahe yare, ta to bargarD 2bare . . .